My Open Apology To All of My Friends Who Had Kids Before Me

To all of my friends who became mothers before me - I'm so sorry. 

I could've been more available.

I could've offered to take your kid(s) for a few hours to give you a break.

I could've came around more.

I could've invited you out more. 

I shouldn't have assumed that you had it all together.

I should've checked on you more. 

I could've been a better friend. I should've been a better friend. 

Now that I'm a mom, I see where I failed as a friend.

I would not be able to handle motherhood without my support system.

I know how blessed I am - but I also know that many of you do not have that support.

I really didn't understand the rollercoaster that is motherhood until I became a mother myself. Some things you can't really understand until you experience it.

Looking back I should've been that support for you. I had more than enough free time. I really have no excuse for not being there like I should've been. 

I will make more of an effort be that friend you need. I won't assume you're alright or got it all together. Us mamas gotta stick together & I vow to do better. 

Love y'all,

Ciera'